Well tried my hands on Background , real quick , making my point to practise everyday , so taht at some point of time i am capable enough to clear out the pending projects in my pandora Box .I Swear this year is not going to be Wasted.+ I am planning on to get into a college for Post graduation course as the job i was working was unable to pay salary and failed miserably , so I clearly have no other option .Enough of rant i ll make sure i utilise most of this year and compensate the bad year 2016
Made this one yesterday .Sharpening my skills , Practising every day so that I could Better myself in flash and complete the pending projects i have with myself.
Here's a Character i tried Creating in flash
I had some conception of how my character yousuf will be treated or accepted in the future , due to , of course the Current scenario ,Trump Supporters being Racially Violent and US government being strict towars it's immigration and entry policies , also taking into consideration my past projects I am doubtful if this projected would be rejoiced by everyone here .i cant do much but just plead you guys to watch my project without keeping a grudge ,and focus more on artistic and animation aspects that would be useful. As a normal dude i too have seen in facebook how bad the Web war of Commenting can go ,So please if you understand that i am sure i would be encouraged to bring up something more better than what FISTS AND FEET will be . The next one is Version 4
I DONT KNOW WHEN WILL I COMPLETE THIS I M ABOUT TO BLAST ,SO MANY CONCEPTS STILL IN THE PANDORA BOX YET SKILLS NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO CONVERT IT TO A PROJECT LIKABLE ENOUGH .GOD ISNT GONNA DO ANYTHING THAT'S FOR SURE.I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO COMPLETE IT BUT THE PROBLEM IS THAT I M IN A PRETTY BAD SHAPE MYSELF .I FEEL MY SKILLS HAVE ROLLED BACK TO SQUARE 1 FROM THE POINT I HAD STARTED MY ANIMATION COURSE ,DEDICATON's ZERO AND IT's PRETTY DIFFICULT TO COMPLETE IT ANYHOW .
YOU HAD TO STEAL THOSE COOKIES ,DIDNT YOU???? YOU ELMO"S STEP BROTHER COOKIE MONSTER
lets give it a name .lets not give it a thoughtful name that really pertains to a meaning , I made it without thinking anything, Just Random doodling , you know , .So if you come to visit my post here ,just suggest the first two words that come to your mind , join them by any preposition , but yeah , dont make it sounf d like something highly complicated and intellectual ,Only silly and crazy names accepted .Here's the Image Below
well i am a confused spirit , and at times it seems a little difficult to gather all the concenteration on just one thing .So as this is what my life has been running on , so at this point of time , when decision making requires a firm judgement, i am failing to choose between the options , all of them seem lucrative, moreover , i have done a course that doesnt target some specific sort of job , it takes into most of the creative job , so , during the course , i was like ill do this , and thath and that and that asnd so on , it is so lucrative , you just cant sacrifice on to go on to study other.
Now my poor desicion making is making further problems as , It has already been 6 months and i m jobless, Well it was my choice, i wanted to self study for some time and grow myself .But as the funding comes directly from parents and parents also do expect something , it becomes tough to take a decision that respects both parent-child opinion.ans in my family My father is short tempered ,and indireclty tortures my mother so that his desicion is valued .But let me tell you i m not a kid anymore ,he also told this when we got into an arguement session., so as i am not a kid or a teenager ,however the fear factor has become less , and it seems morally ok to me if he decides to kick me out of the house some day , more over , what more life is beyond this , and who would want to grow up to experience , diseases like , diabetes, arthiritis, alzheimers, bp fluctuation , etc .I dont want to discourage you , but is life worthful ahead in life , i mean , what worth is life ahead,?Once you get a job, you work like a donkey day and night a , after a few years then parents will nag and say ,marry, a few years later when are you going to have a kid , etc , It gives me a deep headache , thinking about all of this.Hell and Heaven arent two separate bodies , both of them exist on the earth like Yin and Yan ,but theres good in bad , and vice versa bad in good. Human life isnt any good , animal life is the best , at least their luxury doesnt cripple them so they expect more of it .UGGGGHHHHHH you see i m so highly confused !!!
how do you feel when you work day and night for a project continouusly for may be 5 days and then the software fails to give the output??if you dont lety me tell yoiu it is the worst feeling , I mean I worked my ass off for spooktacular and now this freaking Laptop just keeps crashing!!!!!.Damn it .THe bad softwares and slow computers are the main reasons for around 23% stress among the world population.seems irritating I cant do much more other than to wait so that i can borrow some higher version of the software from someone , Hope i dont have to face another fuckin dud in the future. here's a portion of it that could be rendered as a GIF
Currently looking at my portfolio and comparing it to others like my seniors and the juniors who have passed out this year.After a lot of speculations anfd rejections from company evne i agree to the fact that if i was to employ myself in the company , i would most probably reject .It really sucks and sucks even more as i have a degree and no skills .My Parents attitude is on an anticipation to the most basic question of what does my future hold .Well I have a plan which is more of a coward i believe ,moreover if anyone says i m childish , i wont dey to the fact as It may also be a reason for my alethargic attitude towards getting a job that pays.Sitting in home it feels like this is the end to the happy student life that I have been living for these odd 23 years. Sometimes i cry for hours during the night for my this state.I dont know why , but this makes me feel that either i m losing sanity or i am about to have some serious chronic psychological disorder