well i am a confused spirit , and at times it seems a little difficult to gather all the concenteration on just one thing .So as this is what my life has been running on , so at this point of time , when decision making requires a firm judgement, i am failing to choose between the options , all of them seem lucrative, moreover , i have done a course that doesnt target some specific sort of job , it takes into most of the creative job , so , during the course , i was like ill do this , and thath and that and that asnd so on , it is so lucrative , you just cant sacrifice on to go on to study other.

Now my poor desicion making is making further problems as , It has already been 6 months and i m jobless, Well it was my choice, i wanted to self study for some time and grow myself .But as the funding comes directly from parents and parents also do expect something , it becomes tough to take a decision that respects both parent-child opinion.ans in my family My father is short tempered ,and indireclty tortures my mother so that his desicion is valued .But let me tell you i m not a kid anymore ,he also told this when we got into an arguement session., so as i am not a kid or a teenager ,however the fear factor has become less , and it seems morally ok to me if he decides to kick me out of the house some day , more over , what more life is beyond this , and who would want to grow up to experience , diseases like , diabetes, arthiritis, alzheimers, bp fluctuation , etc .I dont want to discourage you , but is life worthful ahead in life , i mean , what worth is life ahead,?Once you get a job, you work like a donkey day and night a , after a few years then parents will nag and say ,marry, a few years later when are you going to have a kid , etc , It gives me a deep headache , thinking about all of this.Hell and Heaven arent two separate bodies , both of them exist on the earth like Yin and Yan ,but theres good in bad , and vice versa bad in good. Human life isnt any good , animal life is the best , at least their luxury doesnt cripple them so they expect more of it .UGGGGHHHHHH you see i m so highly confused !!!